Below are some videos/recordings of my recent rehearsals and performances. I’m sharing these, not because I particularly like them, but because I want to show that even trained singers have to work hard at sounding “good”, and that nothing is ever perfect every time. There are always little bumps, mistakes, and just general vocal “fails”.
Even though I have been singing since I was 19, I still feel I am not where I want to be in my vocal journey – there are still things about my voice that I don’t like, still things I need to learn and things I still struggle with – like fully applying technique to the repertoire, especially when the nerves kick in!
I also understand that music, like all art forms, is subjective and that my particular sound and style of singing isn’t going to appeal to everyone. Honestly, I am still trying to learn to embrace and like my sound as I still tend to compare myself to my favorite sopranos. My teacher constantly tells me to be kind to myself, but the perfectionist in me has a hard time sometimes lol. Still, this is the sound that God gave me, it’s 100% unique and it’s 100% mine. One day, I’ll learn to fully appreciate hearing it. Until then, I will continue to work hard at honing my instrument, learning all I can to be the best vocalist I can and enjoying every moment of this journey – stumbles and all! 🙂 <3
This was my first performance when I got back into music after a 9-year break. I had only been taking lessons with a new teacher and learning a brand new technique for 3 months before I performed. It was for my sister-in-law’s wedding and I was struggling not to cry lol. You can probably hear it in my voice.
This was a rehearsal for the most recent recital at the music studio I learn/teach. I sang with fellow student and lyric baritone, Dave Burbee the duet “Laci Darem La Mano” from Mozart’s Don Giovanni. He sang the part of Don G and I sang the part of Zerlina. 😀
This was my first recital since venturing back full time into music. After struggling with the piece I had spent months working on, I decided last minute to ditch it and learn this aria instead. It’s “Lascia Ch’io Pianga” from the opera Rinaldo, by Handel. Thankfully, it was an easy enough piece to learn that quickly! That being said, I wasn’t very happy with this performance because I was battling a cold and my voice cracks and sounds a bit raspy at times. I was also nervous so my breath support was pretty much non-existent and that also affected my voice, preventing me from carrying through phrases and causing my vibrato to wobble a bit.
This is one of the videos from our rehearsal for “Laci Darem La Mano”. I chose this one because there are tons of mistakes- including me not being able to get the right notes in one part. This was also several months after the above video – my voice is much stronger and even, and my breath support is getting better. The technique is finally starting to stick..still a long ways to go before I am where I need to be, but hey, progress! 🙂
This is the actual performance of “Laci Darem La Mano” at our Spring Concert. We had some acoustical challenges, and I had some technique issues, but all in all, it was a lot of fun to perform it! 😀
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